She was a girl with all the friends in the world. She would love to meet new people; she would gel with most of them. People, including most of her friends envied the amount of fun she had and the amount of fun she was! At the brink of her enthusiasm, she was a more than happy being, pleased with her exaggerated lifestyle, good-humored, high-spirited, and frivolous!
Now, what makes her feel so lonesome? Suddenly she finds herself losing ground. Now she finds herself alone in a crowd full of strangers. She finds herself introverted and unattached. She finds it hard to even talk to people whom she was once so fond of. Totally lacking enthusiasm she now finds a strange calm in solitude. She feels the only person she can now identify with is she herself.
Is this what soul searching is? Is she just trying to recognize herself in the jumble? She wants to know who she is; she desperately wants to distinguish between herself and the rest of the world. What is it that makes her unique? That one quality everyone searches for, which tells them apart. Her soul pesters her to grow and cultivate her own character. She realizes she had been living the lives of others instead of her own. She would blend into the lives of those who became close and develop a course of life to match theirs. Now she realizes her worth and the worth of the time lost in transition.
Now she realizes that the only person than needs to change is her and the only person that requires that change is her. She needs to build up from scratch taking into account each and every aspect of her life. She no longer wants to be a part of the synonymous, she wants to stand apart, and when she looks in the mirror she wants to recognize herself, she wants to discover ‘me’!
